Run, Run, Run As Fast As You Can...

I don't want to run my entire life.
I don't want to run out of fear to face things.
emotional, philosophical, spiritually.

Our entire lives we run.
We graduate from high school,
book it through college, stopping to study and sleep,
We wake up in debt,
and we work our entire lives.

I am determined to live against the grain.
I am determined to walk, to stroll through life.
Because if we don't find time to enjoy our life,
We will be 80 not able to travel because we shit our pants.


And then, we will have to face all the questions we avoided our entire life.
Because in retirement, you have NOTHING else to do!

I want to live, not just when I'm old.
Actually frankly, if I could be a Dexter Serial Killing Vampire and live forever,
that would be awesome. While we wishing, make me a vampire mermaid that turns when touched with sea water.

This has been random, but get used to being inside of my head, that only thinks outside of the box

Because striving for Perfection for a lifetime is exhausting,
Brooke Danae

Valentine's Day is Near...

The worst fucking holiday is upon us.
I want to hide in my special bomb bunker (shit it is not the 80s anymore, I mean the Apocalypse bunker) to avoid everything that's red, and every desperate girl wanting some romance on this day.

I know I said I want to be more open to love and romance. But I am not going to be open to romance because the day of the year requires me to do so! With this being said, I think this day a lot of people realize some things for themselves. They are not really happy, they are lonely, or god forbid they are a fucking hopeless romantic with no one to spoil.

For most people, you realize just how sad and miserable and lonely your life is on fucking Valentine's Day. It hits you like a freight train. And the next thing you know you are watching Old Romance movies, (or the notebook) stuffing your face with chocolates.

Why the fuck be unhappy on Valentine's day? In my little life experience, I've learned happiness is a choice. It is not just bestowed upon you by your fairy god mother (although, that would be great). A MAN CANNOT BE YOU FAIRY GODMOTHER ON VALENTINE'S DAY. Let's start being honest with ourselves. Is a date, flowers, and chocolates really gonna make us happy? Is that going to assure us that there is nothing wrong with our lives? These"things" are simply a temporary patch on our lives. (Apparently, a temporary patch everyone uses/does on the same day every year to not feel like...shit)

How about we start being honest with ourselves. What do we really want? I know I sure as hell don't want chocolates or a fucking teddy bear. I want to be happy. Happiness is long journey that takes our entire lives to figure out. So, find something you want for yourself and stop fucking hoping some man is gonna get it for you. Because waiting for a man to do something for you is as pathetic as waiting around for your fairy godmother to grant you a wonderful night with your prince charming. Grab life by the balls, get what you want, do what you want, be who you want. This is not the middle-ages. 

Because striving for perfection for a lifetime is exhausting,

Brooke Danae

Welcome to my Head: Moderation of Evil

I kinda jumped into blogging without any kind of statement as to who I am. Why am I speaking in a public forum. Well, my name is Brooke Danae. Welcome to my head outside the box:

Hi, I'm Human. If you're reading this you are either an alien that's learned how to transpose Earth's Internet blogs or a human who clicked on a link from a Girl's Facebook you know. I'm gonna assume if you're reading this, hopefully you are human and you can identify what the fuck I am trying to say about life.

As Humans, you could say we are damned with an evil nature. With the knowledge of good and evil became a hunger for a darker life. A darker life I feel we have to balance with the good side of us. I feel the internal struggle within all people is the struggle of this balance within our lives. Moderation is key. Moderation of evil. Because lets face it, sometimes our lust leads us to serious relationships. There is good in evil, and evil in good. Our world is grey, and our lines are blurred.(If your world is black and white...uhhhh). Judgement should be irrelevant in a grey world, but with all good comes evil.

We're all human. We are all not perfect. Sometimes we indulge on the other side of our fence as "good" (not perfect) people. Without bad things, trouble, there would be no adventure! Call me crazy, a go-getter, kid, or sinner, but you have to have a tad bit of evil in your life to be living your life. I mean, truly do you have best friend that wasn't acquired during a life hiccup. The true test of a person, is how they respond when in trouble. The "Trouble" test can determine a friend, for sometimes a lifetime. What would have happened if your world was black and white, and you never ventured into trouble? You would never have that best friend.

Get into Trouble (weird advice?),
Brooke Danae

P.S. Stop judging the greys! You, Black-And-Whites!! (If you got that, thank you.)

The Danger of Logic

Happy Birthday to Me!
I told myself when I got a new laptop I would start to blog again. So here it goes...

I don't know if it is because I am a woman, or because I am just truly indecisive. But making decisions is not my strong suit. College vs. College. Mac VS PC. These questions in life can be methodically explored with logic to find a REASONABLE answer. What happens when you have a question you can't answer? What happens if there is no right or wrong answer to the question? You meticulous logic decision-making process is then irrelevant.

Sure. You can think about everything logically. We all have our pro and cons list. But what happens when there is an equal amount of pros and cons? In the matters of the heart, I love a pros and cons list. I always have. I always wanted to stay rational in love.I never wanted to be swooned and look stupid for losing my breath. This logic decision-making process has "worked" for so long, I don't know how to contemplate my matters of the heart.

At a point you have to realize there are some questions pertaining to life that will be too big for your mind to encompass. Think about who created us. Logically. Okay. So who was the creator's creator? And his Creator? Logic becomes an infinite loop, still unanswered. Especially for this question in life, it requires your heart to think instead of your mind.

I want to think with my heart again. I refuse to be a jade. I want to swoon, and be a hopeless romantic. Because sure "ignorance is bliss"(that's me still bringing logic into my life), but life is not fulfilling unless it has been lived with an open heart rather than a logical outlook. This 20th year of my life. I want to jump, I want to be me, I want to have an open mind. But most importantly, an open heart. Perfection is not life, you must live your life. Striving for perfections for a lifetime can be exhausting.